Rebecca A Deil Relation to Deceased: cousin, god-daughter Anthony, I miss you more than words can express. I somehow feel like your death was brought on by the stress of me not doing what i was supposed to do at Aunt Diane's. I forever live with that guilt, the last time I saw you alive was Fourth of July week. I should of been there at her door to greet you, like i had done year after year. If I could go back in time...instantly I would, for you. You are the greatest man I have ever known, so caring and funny. If I could only go back...to have you here on earth again. In losing you, I lost myself. I havent been the same since Jan 12th, 2004, believe that. I ask now that you watch over me and my unborn child and my boyfriend that we are safe and will make it out there. I love you with all my heart, always. I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one, I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when life is done. I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways, of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days. I'd like the tears of those who grieve, to dry before the sun. Of happy memories that I leave when life is done.